Sometimes the transition is not what you plan or what you expect. Sometimes old habits (thoughts, actions) are hard to break. You want to break them but they are familiar, you know your habits better than anyone or thing.  When things are tight, you revert back to them, the old friends that they are.

It doesn't take a miracle and it doesn't take a straw to break the camels back. What it really takes is that you change your mind, realizing that is time to make the break in order to move forward.