The Air Up There
They say that Libra is an air sign. On a visceral level this makes sense to me. Air is of the utmost importance to me. I have often described times that I've felt pressure, felt uncomfortable or felt dissatisfied as times in which I can not breathe. I am there right now, this I know for sure.Change is not comfortable always, change is unsettling sometimes, yet it can be a good thing. My lack of air, indicates that it is time to transition to the next phase. What I wanted to do was catch my breath a little while longer. Some things have happened, some overwhelming things, some things that I did not know while I was in the midst o them that I would ever be able to shake. I have been depressed, I have been beyond angry, I have been sad and then I found my cloud.
I rested on that cloud, I played on that cloud, I found my smile again and I heard my song. I floated on it, I enjoyed the rarefied air, and found my happy place, my chi, my zen state of mind. When its that good, you don't ever want to leave. Life has a funny way though of bringing you back down to earth. I would have loved to have floated down, but it seems that I have crash landed, and that is ok.
What I learned while I was on the cloud, was some perspective. From high up, all those things that were troubling, all those things that were larger than life, looked really small from way up high. Upon crashing to earth, I find that all those things really are small and some of them no longer exist. The cloud also gave me some clarity. While away from it all I was able to see events and things and people exactly as they are, not as I wish them to be. Back down here on the ground, I see that things have not changed and that some things are and will forever be outside of my realm of influence and I can accept that.
Being back on the ground with perspective and clarity makes the shortage of air all the more noticeable. I don't have to ponder the reasons why I can't breathe, what I can do, what I must do is move to the next place. A place where I can breathe.
